BUBBLE.

There's like, this bubble inside of me, filled with so many things I want to say, but can't.
There is hurt, grief and a lot of other things that could cause people other emotions, who knows how far they would take their reaction levels to..does that sentence even make sense to you? Cause it sure doesn't to me..

Right now, seclusion into my 'drama-world' is the only thing that'll distract me from everything. Not even music's gonna help me this time. Haha, I was asked to sing 'Firework' - Katy Perry today. Sense the irony.
But it's been on my list of songs that I've put on repeat constantly these past few weeks...
Anthony Neely's quite good as well :) Although he like, just started in the industry.

I hope that they're just your rebound..But I know even afterwards, you guys will have your own bond that I could've never forged with you. They fuel you. I hate it. I hate them. I try SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSO much not to, I really do. I swear it. But I can't. I mean just their face. Take one look at it, and it gives me the shits. Like not in the ugly way, it radiates a type of annoyance.

Gah. Another annoying thing. MORDO FAHHHHH. He has so many standards...He wasn't AS bad as I expected him to be, but his expectations are so damn high...And we have to full do a 'career' interview with him or something, but luckily my class does it next year, and not in the coming weeks because he's going on holidays THE NEXT COMING FRIDAY. YAYYYY.

What I'm really in need of right now, is a REAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLLY good love story plot in a drama. Preferably Taiwanese. I'm just two episodes shy of finshing 'Down With Love'. Gosh that's a good drama! :D Maybe I should watch Mischevious Kiss instead, coz then my dad'll be able to hear what I'm watching if I watch something Taiwanese, and then he'll know that I'm not 'studying'. To him, Korean and Japanese sound the same to him. So I just tell him I'm studying the Japanese conversational tone/ grammar while watching dramas...Haha.
Fleeceable he is.

I always have a backup plan if I somehow end up not wanting to go to university, but I'm scared my parents would disapprove. I think mum would understand. But dad would go crazy and point out all the statistics and negativies. Sheesh. Sometimes you need HOPE...No one knows what it is. Not even my parents. I've ALWAYS wanted to do this ever since I was seven. I still remember the day/ time I made the decision. I was getting ready for a shower, and I started to sing random notes. And then I did this melody, which I can't do anymore..You know how when you do something once, and you don't know how to do it again? Yeah, I had that feeling. Anyways, and I did this melody..And then it got me thinking about what I should do 'when I grow up'.
Many people have suggested to me taking up the chance to do it. LOL. But I just full decline, not wanting them to find out. Coz to me, I slightly think it's unable to do because of the possibilites to get to have a chance to pursue this occupation.

But it's gonna be hard to pursue/ 'study'. I just hope God can lead me in the right path :)..Well, He always does! :D

28days. counting.