2011...? BRING IT OOOONNNNNNNNNNNNN

Three wviws from RUSSIA! I want to go to Russia SO badly, and I want to track down ALLLLLLLL the Faberge eggs! They are SO beautiful!

Well, today was pretty tiring, even though we didn't do much...We watch 'Little Fockers' and then afterwards went to lunch at KURA on Dixon's. RUTH WONG. I AM SO GOING TO TAKE YOUR ASS TO MIZUYA NEXT TIME.
KURA. is like. VOMIT. It's very 'yeet hey' compared to Mizuya. Like yeah, Karaage is already yeet hey, but OMG. KURA's Karaage is like. nearly BLACK. NO JOKE.

But I was so full. They gave you this MASSIVE serving of rice, and basically no chicken...like um...huh?
And after that, we walked along Dixon's, then into Market City. As per usual, whenever I enter Market City from the Dixon side, I always check if Wilson's at the kiosk SELLING PHONES and signing people up for contracts. Hahaha. And then I distract him. TCH. We were childhood concubines...At least his porpor thought so...haha :)
Then we left. For home. Not much. Now, it's time to go for pre-drinks and BBQ/ dinner or whatever we're going to do...Nearly there....I wish that one day, I could have the status of my relatives...Not really status, but the way they live their lives. My life goal won't be to strive to be like them, but I just wish that my life will be more..'organised' and family-loving in a way in my near future...
OMG. IMAGINE IF FIREWORKS BY KATY PERRY COMES ON IN THE CITY DURING THE FIREWORKS! :)

I shall leave my entry to here. Tomorrow's Jeffrey's birhtday. That's another whole day gone.
HAAAAPPPPPPPPPY NEWWWW YEARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! :D

2011..? BRING IT OOOONNNNNNNNNNNN

Three checkups from HK aye ;)
I'm missing you heaps! :(
Come back sooon, and don't kill your wallet!

GRRRRRRR. 12 more days till you're back...

Um, ROFLs?
My mum just had a go at trying to explain the smell of sweat to me...
Is that over the top information?
Coz I swear, it is one of THE most funniest things I've heard in a long time. And I just wanted to share it with people... :/

She failed with the explanation.

NO. I did not need you to catalogue my life. - Reflections of 2O1O; Welcome to the thoughts of my brain.

APPARENTLY, a DISCREET family member of mine wants to 'help me catalogue' everything about me.
Everything from day-to-day activities, down to the shoes I wear. Literally.

I don't deserve to be treated in a certain way, it all comes down to....
Well, I can't say 'morals & ethics', because they are both based on motivations from the worldly audience.
I'd say......God's morals&ethics fits in there best :)

This year has been a massive blur, there were some EXTERMELY good things that happened, which could be counted as the highlight of my life. But then, in return, there were some EXTREMELY bad things that also happened. I could either get all pissed at it and sulk in my little corner. OR, I could take this in a stride, without lingering at the regrets I've made, and turn this into a life-long lesson?
I lost something that was more special than all the cash put together in this world, yes, it's cliche, but it's true.
My diary for some stubborn reason, stopped flowing with vivid memories for some unbeknownst reason. And as hard as I try to keep it flowing like a foutain with beautiful crystal-clear reflecting water, I know that it won't be happening for a bit of time.

Do they really mean what they say? Because they're kind of contradicting themselves. They say they care, and that they want to, yet they don't put it into actions. Kind of contradictory, for a person who got pissed off and telling them off with the same lines I just said.
OR, it could be that they really care and they actually do mean it, but only through the hurtful words that comes out of their mouths :S So it's like, 'read between the lines'....
I have very vivid dreams. Only a few handful know what I mean. Not even a handful. Half a handful? Quarter of a handful? Gosh, I think it's a blessing on one hand, and a curse on the other hand. I mean, it depends on the dream right? But ARGGGGH. How the hell are you meant to determine my dreams when they don't relate much to your life. Like yeah, it does relate to my life, but not in any specific way. I mean, I dream every night. And it pisses me off. You could basically say that my dreams determine my mood for the start of each day. I'm not crazy, I swear I'm not.

Like the dreams I got when I was what...4? Lions and snakes chasing after me? I had that dream basically every single night. WHEN I WAS FRICKEN FOUR YEARS OLD. Up until when I was like...10/11, when the dream 'actually happened'. Coz after the 'incident' happened, I read these 'dream guides' or whatever the hell they're called, and I remembered what I saw in my dreams and then they all seemed to make sense. I still remember them as if I just woke up from it. But that 'guide' thingy, didn't really say much about others...I hate my brain...

HAHAHAHAAH. Ok, now, I come to a pause, and think of who could be reading this...maybe some well-off person. Maybe some stalker. Maybe some normal person. Maybe someone who's going through tough times. Maybe a paedophile. OMG ROFLMAO. I just stopped typing straight after the full stop after typing 'paedophile'..LOOL Serious matter Grace, it's a serious matter..but LOLOLOLOLOL

There's only one person in this world who knows me best, although they may not know it themselves, at least I'm telling them now - indirectly. If they ever read this. There's nothing that that person doesn't know about me. Well, all the important bits anyway. The smaller pieces can fall in random spots where they may. And no. This isn't some symbolic talk, about 'God knows me best'..

What else has happened? New school = new friends :)
LOL, I've changed school 'so many times' (the actual physical, school campus) everyone always goes, "OMG YOU CHANGED SCHOOLS AGAIN?!"
500 students is very overwhelming, especially if you had a 'trial' from a year group of approximately 60 people to a different school which had 180ish students, which THEN you change to the senior campus which contains 500+ students ONLY in your year. Which means a school of 1000+ students - including the year 12s.

BLAH. enough about me, I wish you a HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE :)
Secret Garden - you're making me go high.  

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I'm not really in the mood to talk to you, or anyone. What I say or do has been an act for quite some time. Yes even to you.
I don't mean to be mean, the truth hurts, but yes. This is the only way I can be when I don't want people to pelt me with questions.

Feel priveleged world. You have entered my diary. This is what I would write in my diary word-for-word. The previous entries weren't really 'diary entries'..

...Like, if I was free when I'm out, then yeah, sure, I'll go ahead with it...
But just to go out just for something (like that), I don't have the time for that at the moment.......

Yeah, I may have said it myself, but I don't want to find the time just for YOU.
Ok, that's selfish, but like yeah. I don't mean it in a mean way, it's just that...I think it'll be awkward?
I mean, think about it...You're how much older?
Like, it if was a place where there weren't many people, or if there wasn't so much of the bustling crowds of Sydney, then I'd be for it. Ish.
It's just that it gets me thinking.."um, what do we do?"
Our ages are so many years apart, our likes are so different.

just no?

See, great minds really do think alike.

Well, that gave no closure.....LOL

When times are rough, turn to your Leb friends, they provide endless amounts of laughter :)
Seriously, no joke :)
They take life so lightly, but yet so seriously, if you get what I mean? :S
They are pretty cool. They make the funniest jokes, about something that could be so serious. Which is AWEEEESOME, if you are in need of laughter :)

Wtf? Am I not allowed to watch videos?
jeez, I was just merely watching it, and then I heard it. Farout.

***
I'm not stupid, I know. I just want to see how you'd make up your lie, or how you would not lie, and how you would tell me the truth. Or, to just ignore and act innocent the next time I ask you. You think I would be pisssed or cut if you told me the truth? No. I wouldn't be. I would only feel that way if you lied. Or ignored. So now it's up to your choice, to see how you shape my perspective of you. So, in the end, it'll only really be your decision..I GUESS.

***
There's so much that I've learnt about friendship over these past few months...
Yeah, whoever's reading this may be like, "Um? What is there to learn? Just to be nice to people, respect and be loyal to them?"
Haha, if you're one of those people thinking that, then obviously, you do not know the meaning of friendship.
Friendship isn't just about the other people, it's also about yourself, and how you want to be treated (in an 'un-selfish way of course..).

ELATEDness. Is there such a word? :) I HOPE SO. pretty sure there is...

BAHAHAHAHA.
ok. Today was a great day. Boxing Day Sales!
It's not a tangible subject, but I would drool all over it, if it were.. :)

They were MAAAAAASSSIVE!
You should've seen the crowds, there was one point, where we LITERALLY COULD NOT walk through the other side of the store, let alone walk between the benches where the items were placed.

웃음만. That's how I've been spending these few days. Memorising it. :)

Well, it was quite a surprise seeing a shout out, but I was AWEEESOMELY and pleasantly surprised when I watched J.Reyez's video :)
I don't know what to say, I'm just in awe :) Anyways. :)

NICOLEEEEEEEE! :D OMG THE DRESSES. OMG. THE CLOTHES. OMG. I NED TO GO BACK AND BUY. There was this REAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLY beautiful dress that I saw! OMG. I LOVE ALL THE DRESSES IN THAT DAMN SHOP.

Well, I went to Mizuya for lunch with Sarah and Lydia, and we had a mini DnM :) <3
BAHAHAHAHAAH. I'm sorry I couldn't share much with you guys..:/ I didn't have much to tell! But on the other hand, your stories were FUNNY. Yet cute :)
And OMG. Shopping, with your brother?! What girl would not dream of that?!

And when Lydia and I went to Cotton On. O.O
This was the scene:
Music fades at the end, slight 15 second silence from the surroundings and shoppers, we walk through the shop, music comes back on, and this is how it starts:

I. AM NOT A WHORE...........I. AM A HUMAN. NOT. A SANDWICH.

You should've seen the looks on the Cotton On assistants faces when they saw everyones reaction to the song! ROFLMAO. Great going LMFAO-great lyrics you guys wrote.. LOL :)

Great Day. ESPESH THE FOOD AT MIZUYA. SALMON?! I think SO :)

Food for thought.

OK, So, it's my second post for today. but whatever..

I'm on Facebook right, and one of my friends posted this on his status

I Love ALLLAH
♥Put this as your status .80%
wont post this because they are
afraid to be laughed at, God
sed:"If u deny me in front of
......people, i will deny u infront of them.

JUST TO MAKE IT CLEAR.
I HAVE NOTHING AGAINST (is it Muslim or Islam? :/ I'm a bit confused) THEIR BELIEFS.
Yeah, I may be a Christian, but this confuses me o.O

Do they believe in MY God? Because I'm pretty sure my God said

 "..but whoever denies me before men, I will also deny before my Father who is in heaven" - Matthew 10:33

"..if we endure, we shall also reign with Him; if we deny Him, He will also deny us" - 2 Timothy 2:12

I don't really know how to use the quoting thingy on this, so ignore the layout of it. LOL.

But yeah, that just got me thinking...I'm just saying..I'm not against their beliefs or anything.
To me, having faith in something/ someone, is better than having no faith at all.

/edit. ok, What I guess I was saying was, who is it that we should believe? Things coincide between some religions/ beliefs and it gets really confusing. Of course, any person from their own religion would stand up for their god, and say "Of course it was our God that said it"
But it just gets really confusing, I'm not saying that I'm doubting my own faith, it's just that, all religions have been around for so long apart from modern day beliefs..It's hard to really pick out which is 'real' or not.

Read it.

Proverbs 27:6
Although it may not feel like it, it's actually true, from our own perspectives. What we think is best, may not be the best for others, but still. None of us want to take the risk...

By now, I thought you would've taken the hint, but when I tell you, I think you're going to be like "WTF O.O?!" You're reaction's going to be hilarious! :) KARMA TIME?! LOLOLOLOLOLOL. Be greatful that I haven't said anything.....YET :P

Those hateful words of yours ;), just letting you know, please be careful? Even if it wasn't regarding to a certain person, they might feel differently about it.

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On a happier noteeee! MERRY CHRISTMAAAAAAAAAAASSS! :D
Happy birthday Jesus! :D Thank You for being here with me the past few days, helping me along the way with reorganising my life! Thank You for helping me find my niche when I study. Thank You for helping me find my inspiration to study! :)

Thank You for coming down here to save us from our sins, and I hope that the next time will draw closer! Like yeah, I know each day brings us closer to it, I just mean "be close to now" :) Thank you. I thank You, for YOU :)

LOL, I know it sounds weird, and maybe cheesy, to have an inspiration to 'study'. But really, once you know what you want to do, and once you find out what can help you along the way to get what you want, it really does help, it just keeps on pushing you forward because it's there in front of you to remind you. Or at least it has with me? :L
Just keep in mind, all things you do should be for Him, not for yourself, not for anyone. Just find your niche in everything you do :)

I have a penchant for studying now. I can't believe that this has happened, but I have a strong penchant for it :)

THANK YOU GOD :)
Hopefully, the New Year will be better, with new 'starts' :)

Get a life.

It would be nice. To 'get a life' right now. My life at the moment, is the epitome of boredom.
There's like stacks to do, and yet, I just REAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLY can't be bothered. Like, I know that what I need to do is important, but I just can't bring myself to do it. I actually need something that's aesthetically/ tangible to motivate me. Yeah, that kind of doesn't make sense, but at least I know what I'm talking about.

I don't want to seem like I'm trying to tell the world my daily life activities...When I started this blog, that wasn't the intention. It isn't at this very moment in time. And I really hope that it won't be in the future.
It's just that, I can't be bothered writing in my diary anymore....O.O
Yeah, I'm cheesy. Now stop focusing on me. If you ever were in the first place.

Go to someone else's blog. If you wanted to be a stalker in their lives.

OH.

MY.

CRAP.


REALITY HAS JUST HIT ME. THERES ONLY TEN MONTHS OF HIGH SCHOOL EDUCATION AND WE'RE OUT OF THERE! OMG. THIS IS ALL HAPPENING WAYYYYYYY TOOOOOO FAST! LIFE NEEDS TO SLOW DOWN! :(
I DON'T WANT THE YEAR 11s COMING IN!!!! YEAR 12s ALONE IS FINEEEE THE WAY IT ISSS! SOMEONE MAKE ME FIVE YEARS OLD AGAIN. please?

Cousins came over, they had 'the time of their life' playing Uno with me. LOL. And then they had piano lessons the street next to mine afterwards. I love my cousins. If my family, and extendeds, were symbolically just the 'one' family, I think we would be the ones that would always be frowned upon.
Didn't get to go ice-skating... :(

I want. A Merry Christmas.

Why?

Why is it that I'm left with no one?
You are distancing yourself, and if you read this, you'd probably know who you are.
Is it something I've done to you? And now you're pissed...? Or is it really only because you're EXTREMEEEEELY busy getting ready?

Independence. So this is what it feels like.
I always thought I knew what it was like to be independent, but I guess now that the REAL reality has hit me, I know what it's really like to be independent. But then, in a way, it can make people REALLY headstrong. And I think I'm one of those people who can turn out to be really headstrong..So in the end, it won't really be my fault...In the end, I guess I'll have a good enough excuse to blame it on someone, or more like everyone?
FAROUT, I can't believe this is genetic...I look around at my family (inc. extended), and I list ALL the bad qualities against the good ones, which turn out to be 100:1....and I've been thinking to myself all of these years that have passed by, "I WILL NOT turn into one of these people. I can make the change. I am different. I won't let this be passed down."
Yeah, as cheesy as what I say to myself may be, at least I have a hope for a 'better future', behavioural wise.

No one's shoulder to lean on, no one to depend on for happiness. And I guess if that's the 'career' (only 1 person knows what I'm talking about) I want to take on, I'd really have to suck it up and be sane, knowing that the world's not perfect.

I wish I could escape this world. I wish I could swap lives, like SECRET GARDEN AHAHA :D

CANADA?!  and four from Greece?
TEEHEEHEE :D

I SO WANT TO GO TO CANADA :(
It's like cold all year round...well colder than Australia anyways :)
But I wouldn't mind Europe :)
OMG AND GREEEEEECE! the houses there look SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSO BEAUTIFUL!
Ever since I saw those large houses, I've always wanted to go there! ...But shame. I can't go in the sun.

Cousins tomorrow again! :D
...Someone, please, rip my teeth out.. it's so uncomfortable with braces....

...AND OMG. I SO NEED TO CUT OFF LIFE STARTING NOW...
FUCK. I need to get AT LEAST 87marks in ALLLLL of my subjects in the HSC, so that I can get AT LEAST a 90 in my ATAR. CRAP MAN. My subjects are low scaling-ish!

I feel like. ice-skating. tonight. TTEEEEHEEHEEE.
study time. 5th day of holidays, and im already deep beneath the mound of catching up and homework I have yet to complete.. GRRR.

Greatful, joyous, sadness, highness ;), coolness. the epitome. OF GAYNESS.

LaosLaosLaos! COOLIES!

BAHAHAHAHAAHAH.
I SO knew what you were up to today! LOL. That 'acting' of yours BWAHAHAHAHAH!!!! :D
Don't get me wrong, I love you and everything, but LOL. Once I 'found' out who 'they were'. I couldn't resist looking away and laughing to myself! I knew it would be us, and then you mentioning your reason to me LOL. Fail cover up, but I love you heaps! AHAHAH :D
Don't worry! Let's just say that I 'hypothetically' (get the hint? ;)) don't know them, but if they are your true friends, and saying that I hypothetically know that they are, I know that they wouldn't care about the amount of cash of whatever you buy. They only care about your true intentions behind it :)
OK, I don't know about one, but I'm pretty sure that I speak for 'two' of them ;).
You're pretty easy to read as well BWAHAHAHA. And I thought you were hard to read TEEEHEEEHEE! Two down, one to go :D

MIZUYA. OhEmGee. PUFFYNESS. YOU OWE ME AN OUTING TO MIZUYA ONCE YOUR ASS LANDS BACK ONTO THE SYDNEY AUSTRALIAN TARMAC.
COUSINS. CHINGUS. FRENEMYS. ENEMYS. I LOVE YOU ALL. Without you guys, life wouldn't be as it is at this moment :) I don't deny that hating someone makes things 'happier and easier' during moments in life, but I guess it's what makes life roll these days :). And then we can somehow learn from these mistakes, and not be so stubborn as we are, and RECONCILE. Yeah, if I wasn't so high and crap, maybe what I just said would sound that TINSY bit more genuine =.=

I'm happy that you can tell me some stuff that you're not able to tell her :) You're secret's safe! I know never to do some things again... And that's a promise.

On a different note..LINGDA. PUFFYNESS. LYDIA. JESSICA. JULIA. JOYCE. MY HANDS SMELL SO STRONGLY OF TODAY'S PERFUME SESSIONS!!!!..I think they're making me nautious *faints* LOL.
OMG. TYPO. FRIK MAN. AHAHA FILA. Damn, we should've gone to Giordano instead sey-cou-foooooo! :(
But, whatever, thanks for everything :) Mum's told me about everything you've done for us, and I'm so greatful to have family like you :) When I'm able to make my own living, I'm going to spoil all of you till the day I die :) Oh by the way, whoever's reading this and understands the 'dying bit' ;) I SHOULD BE FINE BY NOW. So go back to your life and stop worrying teeheehee. :)

I LOVE YOUSE ALL. FULLY TABOULI. I HAVE TUTORING ON MY BIRTHDAY. NOW THAT is the EPITOME of gayness, retardedness, crapness, and whatever else you can think of..
Oh wells, Basem and I shall celebrate it together at tutoring! :D He's older than me by two days.. AND CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT THERE's like, FIVE people in my year at my school, who's born on the EXACT same date, on the EXACT same month, on the EXACT same year as me BWAHAHAHAHAHA.

Someone backup my argument that 'PASTA', aka MIAN TIAO (canto=MEEEEN TIEW LOL), WAS FIRST MADE IN CHINA. YES. I'M CHINESE. BUT I NEED HARD EVIDENCE CHINGUS!

ON ANOTHER DIFFERENT NOTE. SOMEONE RIP MY TEETH OUT FOR ME. NO JOKE. FRICK MAN. JUST PULL IT ALL OUT. I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE. It doesn't really hurt, it's just in the way, and annoyingly stubborn. THEY'RE JUST THERE. RAISE YOUR HAND IF YOU AGREE WITH ME.
I HATE BRACES. CRAP YOU ALL BRACES.

Today, there were 2 from Israel. Now that's pretty awesome.!
:)

OMG. MELANIE. I LOVE HER. LOL, I've known her for only a day O.O
She is so coooooool! OMG! And then, I'm going to see Nicole next week! OMG NICOLE. I'm so glad to have a cousin like you!I don't even know you that well, but from my view, you are! :)

ICESKATING. MORE ICESKATING TEEEEHEEEHEEEHEEEH!!!!! OMG. I'm gonna go back there at least three times these holidays. I swear I'm going to take up ice-skating lessons soon! Or maybe take them from the 'seefu', NICOLEE :D

BLAHBLAHBLAH. I'm on a high, and I've been happy these few days! :)
Although I've been better, I guess that this is just the start! :D

Spain, France, Nepal?! Wow, never would've thought I'd get a reader from Nepal, since what I know about Nepal is only the National Geographic doco's. :)
16views from USA
3views from the UK
OMG UK. UKUKUKUKUKUKUK!!!!! I WANT TO GO TO THE UK :'(
TT.TT

OMG. Today was fun, but I would REAAAAALLY like it if someone already posted the photos up...
And I met Robin's cousin, who came from Malaysia 2 months ago. OMG HER ICESKATING IS AMAZING! :O And she only lives 5 minutes away from me! And she is so nice, and I could list so many nice qualities about her!!! :)
And today, I have learnt how to iceskate BACKWARDS!! TEEEHEEHEE!! :D
But now, I have blisters on my leg from the skates :(

Eunica, I hope you have a safe flight to and back! :)

BLAH. your face.
/edit. ok LOL. "BLAH. your face." isn't aimed at Eunica, I just felt like saying it :S

ASDKFJASIJFEIPFJ ALKSDBAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

...Yeah, as you can probably tell from the title, I AM ON A HIGH.
FUDGE MAN. I HAD THE BESTEST DAY OF MY TIME AT GRC OATLEY. The word 'fun' is NOT even appropriate to describe today.

Well, let's do a slight rewind back to last night. FAROUT MAN. OPRAH. FARRRRRR. YOUR ULTIMATE FAVOURITE THINGS. FAROUT. COULD YOU LIKE, SERIOUSLY BRING YOUR SHOW OVER TO AUSTRALIA?! That would be great, thanks :)
BUT OMG. She handed out SOSOSOSOSO much stuff to the audience..The minimum that she probably spent on just ONE person, was probably around USD$5000....or even more? FAROUT. But I wasn't impressed with one thing. The NIKE shoes she gave out to the audience. Each member of the audience were given FOUR pairs of NIKE shoes. Yes, they may be light weight and comfortable, but I don't think she really realises the fact that she's supporting sweatshops which have little children, probably even younger than 5 who are forced to do this for a living, for probably $1 a day.
But everything else was AMAZING. I mean, who wouldn't want a 52" SONY TV. Or those high end fashion freebies, like *mind blank* LOL, OK, I don't know the names of the big brands, because they're mostly big names in USA, but not Australia.
And then today, when I come home from school, mum tells me that she was watching Oprah, and she gave EVERYONE in the audience a FREE CAR. If only Australia was this cool :)

But then again, this gets me into thinking, do all these freebies produce a lifelong happiness? Like yeah, sure the adrenalin at the time makes you cry for joy, and your getting freebies, which are like BIG BRANDS which costs $$$$$$$$$. They may give you a few years happiness at the most I guess, but in the end, they're not going to be there forever, and I'm sure the money could be well spent somewhere else. Yes, I know that Oprah is rich, and that she probably doesn't knwo how else to spend her cash, so she decides to splurge on her audience..Like yeah, I'm totally all for it if I had that type of money. What I'm trying to say is, do we really need these things in our life to make ourselves happier and I would like to ask the audience, do they go only because they know that Oprah will splurge on them, or are they actually going because of her talks, and what the show's going to be about. Of course, the audience doesn't know what's going to happen in the show, but is that they're intention for going? If it is, then SHAME ON YOU. You're ONLY going for the freebies, and to get a thrill. Yeah know I'm contradicting myself, but at least it's good to know I think things through before I do something.

And we watched the news coverage of her filming two of the shows :) Apparently the audience fly back to USA today.
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ANYWAYS! :D SCHOOL. WAS. EPIC BRO. OMG. Words cannot explain how fun today was...We got to school, and my first class was Japanese. All we did was watch Howl's Moving Castle. That movie, is THE shiz man. I could watch that over and over again and not get bored of it. Afterwards, it was English, but as I predicted, the teacher didn't even bother to turn up! ahahaha! I was walking down to English, and Gaby and I bumped into Ruth's English teacher, and her skirt was so LONG. So when we were walking down the stairs, I trod on her skirt, as I was right behind her. And LOLOLOLOL, I was waiting for her to move so that we could keep walking down the stairs, and I hadn't noticed that I was on her skirt, and she looked back and I looked down at my feet, and I got so embarrassed =.= So I was apologising non-stop to her, and her reply was, "It's alright, at least you didn't pull my skirt off..Now THAT would've been embarrassing". I love people who can make an awkward situation like that into a humerous one! Cudos to her :D So, I returned back to the Jap room, to continue HMC, and during it, I could hear Naima scream....Damn it's so high pitched =.= LOL Then after the movie finished, I went out, and sat at the circular stairs. Twas boring for a bit, so Ruth and I decided to vernture around the school and discover the nooks and crannies of the school grounds, hoping it would turn into a Harry Potter adventure (not really). The bushes were scary. VERY. SCARY. FAR. And we had Kris Kringle on like, Monday right? And Daisy gave Shelley a human sized bear, and she left it in the locker to take it home today. AND OMG. I went SO high with it..I ran around the whole school with it...I hid it from Ruth, because she was trying to find me, and LOLOLOLOL it's amazing to find new places for hiding in that school of ours :) Anyways, she couldn't find me, and I went into the music rooms with the Leb's, Shelley and ANUSHAAAAAN! Haha. GOSH. It was AMAZING finding out that all the Leb's could play n instrument! I swear this school shows SOSOSO many sides of our students that other students never knew..And I had the bear with me still ( I had it with me for about 3-4 hours today LOL), and Hassan OMG. ROFL. Hassan, he took the bear from me, and he pretended that he was having 'intimacies' with it, and then Anusham joined in, giving it a head job....AND OMG ROFLMAO. NO ONE COULD STOP LAUGHING. THE TEACHER WALKED IN ON THEM. Coz Music class is always a bludge, so you never know which room anyone is in (we have three music rooms which are joined together). And Hassan, anushan and THE BEAR, were SMACK BANG in the middle of the room and the teacher walks in..Guess what the teacher does? He walks up to them, and he shakes his index finger at them saying, "No boys, you cannot do that" LOLOLOLOL.
Then, the remainder of the break until last period was just basiclly me in the music rooms, showing Ruth the longass 'runway' in the toilets in the Gym, playing hide and seek (it was FRICKEN BOILING) and running around with the bear, giving it a piggyback and going high (which was 90% of the time).
To translate today into cantonese, in one sentence: NGOR DEY DEEN JOR AH.

:) Then Biology came along, we did work coz our class was behind everyone elses, but we didn't mind :) And I kept shouting out weird answers :/ But they were somehow correct haha. And then, by the end of the lesson, the teacher gave us merits which he only signed his name on, which meant we had to write our own name on it. And I wanted to take two, one for Ruth and one for me, so I took them, and tried to walk away from Ruth...AND GUESS WHAT MR KERWICK SAYS?! "Actually, Grace, you deserve two!" I was like "....Um..I do?!" and I couldn't stop laughing the whole time till I got outside the school..

Then at tutoring...It was OK..Anushan had a trial today. And we got Basem's brother's essay. Then, we watched BladRunner. WHAT IS THAT?! I dislike it.
Damn this is a long entry...

To end it on a happy/ sad note, I cannot believe how good today was, and that we will NEVER have another day like this in our educational lives. Because, not everyone in Year 12 was here today, I think it was around 30 people all in total? And then next year the Year 11s are barging in...NONE OF US WANT THEM TO COME. OATELY IS BETTER IF ITS ONLY YEAR 12. NOT YEAR 11 AND 12 GAH! :(
NOTE
When I mean high, I mostly mean non-stop laughing in people's faces, and going around saying hi to random people.


On a different note, SYDNEY IS BOILING :'( I WANT WINTER!!! BRING BACK THY WINTER!
And it's very humid, 28degress, with showers and thunder :S'

/edit. LOOLOLOL I just found out that the 'Oprah's Ultimate Favourite Things' episode hasn't even aired in America yet. It goes on air this Friday. Or are my sources completely wrong?

Today was delightful..Not really..
Presentation Day. Tarasai Vushe or however you spell her name, from like the third series of Australian Idol (Top 5 finalists) was performing....Fuck. Her attitude is so gay. She is no different than to the personality that she had portrayed in the show...She is stuck up, self absorbed, and on a note, I would hate to have a friend like her.

She. Thinks. She's. MAD.

...Um, hell no? Well, earlier this year, during our maths classes Mr Kenny told us that Tarasai was a former student at GRC Oatley Senior, and that she graduated here. TCH. SHE HAS A SHITTY PERSONALITY. FULLSTOP.

Well, after that, it was Biology and all we did was revision..Mr Kerwick(?is that how you spell it) asked US to give him permission for an early leave LOOL!!! :D That's funny! There were like, only 5 of us in the class.
He was like, "My daughter has a presentation assembly today, and she's getting a gold award. My wife's busy, so she can't make it. Could you guys let me have an early mark?"
LOLOLOLOLOLOL!!!!!
So then, it was break, and RUTH. FAHHHH. She was on a high...She kept laughing and pulling my socks down, and then saying "You feel naked now, DON'T YOU?!" ROFL.

...THEN. It was Maths. The teacher handed us a sheet, but it was probability. Who doesn't know how to do probability?...=.=

...BLAH. So, I walked out of class without asking..I'd doubted that he'd notice anyways LOL. And I went around the school finding people, since like, half the school left after recieveing their awards. And I found Anushan, Benny, Georgia and Minoti in the library. And OMG. I was on a high, tickling EVERYONE I saw. NO JOKE, I mean EVERYONE...

AND OMG. FUDGE MAN. BASEM GOT FRICKEN DUX OF YEAR 11!!!!! THAT IS SO FRICKEN COOL. WHAT MAKES IT EVEN COOLER, IS BECAUSE HE'S LEB. Not in the racial way. I mean like, because a lot of people have this stereotypical view on Leb people and that when they have that view, they don't expect a 'nerdiness'. BUT WOW. No sarcasm intended; Leb's are FRICKEN SMART.  

Last day of school. Then, tutoring. THEN MY FIRST DAY OF MY FIRST JOB! WHEEEEEE :D
Then cousins and tightening of thy braces...to be truthful, I can't WAIT for my braces to be tightened, coz I feel like my teeth are very 'loose', like they're just hanging there.. Then a massive, overdue, well-deserved sleep-in. :) <3 chingus!

Things I have learnt today.

WOW. Um, LOOOL?!
In tutoring, I have learnt that spiders THINK that Basem is hot. And that they are EASILY attracted to him.
I have realised that we, Oatley students, go to Jerks High School. Not GRC Oatley Senior Campus.

FEI IS LEB AT HEART. But Asian skinned. If that works out...?
OLIVER PLATT IS A REPLICA OF MR KENNY. STRAIGHT OUT. NO JOKE.


Life is gay. Will be gay. OHWELLS.
Lala. I hope this is just where I get to know God better, and then everything lse works out fine? :) TEEEHEEEHEE!!! :D

Haha. Yeah. My heart literally dropped. It literally feels like an empty hole.
No joke.

/edit.  It feels surreal, but yeah, whatever floats your boat chingu. Seems like love DOESN'T make things easy afterall.

Bits of this is aimed at different people, so perceive this in any way as you may wish to..

So, I see that your avoidance is a deliberate action. And that you tell us different things.
I know which 'explanation' that you're giving is true, that you don't want to 'spoil people's moods'. But it'll eventually happen, so just let it out. Please?
We're still waiting for you, you know? I told you we would. So until you're back, and until you 'face the music', none of this is going to clear up. It won't be. Until you come back.
I don't want this to sound like I'm blaming it all on you, and that it's your fault. But that's what it feels like...just voicing my thoughts....

Everything's gayness? I can't agree more. We all probably feel shitty, except for one. Well OK, not 'one'. I don't know about what they're feeling..but knowing them, I'd know that they probably wouldn't give a care in the world about anything at the moment...

Your words are harsh. Harsher than actions. Keep that in mind. They leave scars. For a long, LONG, LONG time.

Overall, I had a smashing day at church...Not really, if you look at it from one perspective. But I got a high score :) And I was glad to let everything out. :) I know who my true friends are, and I'm greatful for them, even though I don't tell them much.

It's hard being the only one trying to look into things from all different perspectives, while I have my own opinions to brood over and other peoples as well. But I guess this is what makes things better :)
I don't like to be called 'mature' just for this matter, even if it is a 'mature action'. I just want to be nice and still be young and immature in a way. Why is it so hard to do that? My lessons are learnt. The question is, are your's? Food for thought for the day.

SCREW YOU ENGLISH. youre dead meat tmr. I shall try my best to pass you, with flying colours. If not, then this was definitely what God had planned in mind. THOU SHALT NOT WORRY GRACE. HE HAS YOUR FUTURE PLANNED. AND THERE'S STILL THE JYP IN MIND. OHMYEFF. AWEJRFAWITFJIWTFJIFJ. I have planned it out. I, will send in the JYP thingy TWO WEEKS before the HSC exams are over. That way, I can have a secured future. If it's not uni, then I have JYP to lean back on. That's IF I get into JYP though. GAH.

YOUR MUMMA BRO.

What was your favourite childhood cartoon?
I have a list. But in the ACTUAL 'cartoon (episode)' series, it was Arthur :) But as in 'picture' wise, it was Winnie the Pooh :)

THE ARTHUR SERIES IS STILL GOING WOOOOOOTT :)..Like as in, new episodes are still being produced.

I still remember those phone calls we had in the afternoon while we watched it...Remember it? I sure do.

Dumdeedumdeeedummmmm. Oh btw, thanks for checking up on me. Yep, you sure check up on people like no other person would. Thanks for acknowledging that we're thin air :)

/edit. 2314. you can check on a nokia? either a person checked it 6 times on their nokia. or six SEPERATE people checked it on their nokia? now. THAT is amusing :) in my top3 highlights of today :)

So I see someone on Internet Explorer has it favourited..
GAH. Why am I such  a stalker? Please tell me that there ARE other people like me out there....I don't want to be aloner O.O

LOOOOL :D

GAH. Last assessment on Friday.
FAIL WHALE. I have foretold my future. BYEBYE ATAR MARKS.
Oh wells, at least there's HSC Plus :D
THANK GOD (literally) FOR THE HSC PLUS. Without it, I'd probably be a hobo on the streets in the year 2012.

Had the first worst day of Summer,December. Or whatever you call it.

Hah. When I thought I could sit down and talk to an adult in a MATURE way, never in my life have I made such a bad decision...
Or maybe it's just that one adult.

You tell me to respect elders, and tell me to 'look around' at my peers, and watch how they treat their parents. Hello? We're not them. You can't compare things like that. If I had the bravery to say this to your face, I would. But since I'm SUCH a wuss, I'll just let it out here.

YOU are the reason to why our family is like this. YOU are the reason to why I have SUCH a dysfunctional family. YOU are the reason that causes me to feel embarrassed about introducing you to my friends/ people. YOU are the reason as to why I don't like introducing my parents collectively. YOU think you're Christian? HA. Just take one look at your actions, and you are so not. And to have you lead BIBLE STUDIES, with THAT attitude? YOU embarrass me.

YOU are the reason to why I've never had a good upbringing. Ha, and people seem to think to turn out fine because of my parents way of bringing me up. LOL. Never in my life could I hold in a laugh that's longer than this one. I've been holding this laugh for like..i dunno...10years mebbe?
There is so much more to say, but I think I'll be  nice this one time and shut up, and let the private things be private.

Didn't even eat dinner. Went straight to bed at 800-830 and woke up at like 730. GAWSH I felt SOSOSOSOSOSO lethargic it wasn't funny..

***
And Happy Birthday Gaby!! :D I hope the birthday present made you feel more 'welcomed' into the school since you're new this term. And not many people knew it was your birthday. So, we decided to make you feel more comfortable :) SGCS. LOOOL. Mrs Moroney loves you ;)

***
OK, everything above was to vent out yesterday's feelings...Today. Hmmmm...Gayness. Missed the train to school =.=
School is gay. There's so many annoyin gpeople at school. AND OMG. OUR JERSEY DESIGN IS LIKE VOMIT. NO JOKE. IT LOOKS LIKE VOMIT. THERE'S YELLOW AND OLIVE GREEN ON IT. WHO THE FUDGE USES THAT AS SCHOOL COLOURS?! NOT EVEN THIS YEAR'S YR 12's HAD THAT...Well uniform this year changed. But STILL it doesn't mean that the colour has to be YELLOW?!?!?!?!?!?

HAHAHAH
so far, the name for my jersey is "the wongWEI"
LOLOLOL like "the wrongway", but it's Ruth's last name put with my middle name" :D
I have a few others in mind, but I don't know, they're quite LAME.

WHO THE HELL IS THE FIREFOX READER?! I see you've saved it onto you onto your bookmarks. You go straight to it without a link.

DSKFJAIERJOIJGDFSLKGNDFLIKGEJERGLRGJR

I'm on SUCH a high atm, that I could die from all this laughter and happiness! :D
TWO great things just happened!
TEEEEHEEEHEEE
I found applications where they assure a reply within TWO WEEKS OF YOUR APPLICATION BAHAHAHAHAAHAAHAHA

I'm not telling you guys what the application is for. BAHAHAHA.
But Puffy, if you see this any time soon, it's like the SMstuff ;)
I'll tell you when/ if I get through AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAH

And the other thing, is kind of on a more 'private matter' side. :)
So I don't care to elaborate on it.

MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. someone find me a good drama....

OH. HAI DER!

So, I told you that I could see right through you.
Now that my hunch of you fleeing from everything has been confirmed, I just need to make one thing clear.

IT'S NOT GOING TO WORK.

Yeah, you may think it's for the best. A lot of people do things that THEY may think it's for the best. But what they don't know is that, the recipient on the other end doesn't want that.

***
I'm kinda on a high. I don't know what on. I think I got high from all those maths exercises :D ROFLs!
Got Ancient History marks back today. Let's just say it's a FAILURE. NOT the, "OHEMGEE BRO, I GOT 85%...IT'S A FAIL DUDE"
My referral to today's failure is the "OHMYEFFINGCRAP I GOT 5%. I EFFING FAILED"
OK, I didn't get THAT low, it was exaggerated. But yeah, that's the type of failure that I'm referring to.

It won't make a difference tonight

Hope you were happy today.
All I can say for now is that they're not a good influence on you.
You probably won't take my words into consideration..
But trust me, I've known them longer than you have.
"They say time might change them", you might say.
This is really stereotypical, but this never really happens.

Never thought a pretty little girl like you could turn out to be so bitchy.
So cold hearted.

I SAW YOU.

I SAW YOU INTERNET EXPLORER BROWSER PERSON. JUST THEN. I FINALLLY CAUGHT YOU IN THE ACT.
BUT I STILL DON'T KNOW WHO YOU ARE. HURRY UP AND TELLL MEEEEEE.
I'M DYING TO KNOW.
I kind of have a hunch to who it is. It's 'the bozboz owner' ISN'T IT?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!? OK, if it's not you, then DAMN I look like a retard right now.. O.O
XD

/edited 6 minutes after posting.
OH. SO I SEE THAT I KNOW YOU FROM FACEBOOK.
GOSH JUST TELL ME WHO THIS IS. yeah, i sound quite like a stalker. I KNOW. BUT I DONT CAREEEEEEEE. TELL ME GAH.

GAH. WHO THE HELL IS THE INTERNET EXPLORER BROWSER THAT CHECKS NEARLY EVERY DAY?! I WANT TO KNOW.
I know who the Chrome is, it's between three people.
I know the Safari as well. I think.

BUBBLE.

There's like, this bubble inside of me, filled with so many things I want to say, but can't.
There is hurt, grief and a lot of other things that could cause people other emotions, who knows how far they would take their reaction levels to..does that sentence even make sense to you? Cause it sure doesn't to me..

Right now, seclusion into my 'drama-world' is the only thing that'll distract me from everything. Not even music's gonna help me this time. Haha, I was asked to sing 'Firework' - Katy Perry today. Sense the irony.
But it's been on my list of songs that I've put on repeat constantly these past few weeks...
Anthony Neely's quite good as well :) Although he like, just started in the industry.

I hope that they're just your rebound..But I know even afterwards, you guys will have your own bond that I could've never forged with you. They fuel you. I hate it. I hate them. I try SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSO much not to, I really do. I swear it. But I can't. I mean just their face. Take one look at it, and it gives me the shits. Like not in the ugly way, it radiates a type of annoyance.

Gah. Another annoying thing. MORDO FAHHHHH. He has so many standards...He wasn't AS bad as I expected him to be, but his expectations are so damn high...And we have to full do a 'career' interview with him or something, but luckily my class does it next year, and not in the coming weeks because he's going on holidays THE NEXT COMING FRIDAY. YAYYYY.

What I'm really in need of right now, is a REAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLLY good love story plot in a drama. Preferably Taiwanese. I'm just two episodes shy of finshing 'Down With Love'. Gosh that's a good drama! :D Maybe I should watch Mischevious Kiss instead, coz then my dad'll be able to hear what I'm watching if I watch something Taiwanese, and then he'll know that I'm not 'studying'. To him, Korean and Japanese sound the same to him. So I just tell him I'm studying the Japanese conversational tone/ grammar while watching dramas...Haha.
Fleeceable he is.

I always have a backup plan if I somehow end up not wanting to go to university, but I'm scared my parents would disapprove. I think mum would understand. But dad would go crazy and point out all the statistics and negativies. Sheesh. Sometimes you need HOPE...No one knows what it is. Not even my parents. I've ALWAYS wanted to do this ever since I was seven. I still remember the day/ time I made the decision. I was getting ready for a shower, and I started to sing random notes. And then I did this melody, which I can't do anymore..You know how when you do something once, and you don't know how to do it again? Yeah, I had that feeling. Anyways, and I did this melody..And then it got me thinking about what I should do 'when I grow up'.
Many people have suggested to me taking up the chance to do it. LOL. But I just full decline, not wanting them to find out. Coz to me, I slightly think it's unable to do because of the possibilites to get to have a chance to pursue this occupation.

But it's gonna be hard to pursue/ 'study'. I just hope God can lead me in the right path :)..Well, He always does! :D

28days. counting.

BLAH. Jack: EQUALITY GRACE!

Malaysia!! wooo!
OHMYCRAP. OK, I finished my Japanese speech today. I kinda died, but I don't care. BLAH. The only one left is English, and that's like..two weeks away..so there's no stress...

OMG..And I HATE that girl..She's so fricken self-absorbed it's not even funny. And she over reacts. Hahaha. She's like, the epitome of a drama queen. LIKE FUCK YOU?!
Dude, could you NOT see me there studying for my JAPANESE SPEECH?!..WHEN YOU CLEARLY KNEW IT WAS STRAIGHT AFTER LUNCH. FUCK YOU. And you move, to sit right next to me, bring the fricken notebook over, start watching BigBangTheory and turn the volume up to maxx. YOU COULD CLEARLY SEE ME STUDYING. AND ALL YOU FUCKING CARE ABOUT IS SITTING BACK TO BACK WITH A WALL WATCHING A SHOW ON FULL BLAST VOLUME?! Ha, if it was YOU in my place today, you would've had a period of bitching just about the incident. Epitome of drama queen example number ONE.

Dude, the way you bitch is like, epic. I could never do that. You'd probably win the Olympics for that, in EACH AND EVERY ONE OF THE TOPICS GIVEN TO YOU. Epitome of drama queen example number TWO.

And your over reactions to even the teeniest things? Like, fuck you with that fricken squealing? What is with that? You're so fricken self absorbed that you don't even fricken regard the people around you. I really wonder how you manage to keep your friends..I really don't see any good traits in you apart from wanting to study 24/7, and trying to/ being able to obtain the highest mark possible...If you could even consider that a good trait..
Dont' get me wrong, like hell yeah, I would praise you anyday on that. But like, everything else about you, and why people like you, I just can't fathom.

If you happen to see this, don't start giving people crap on me, because so far, you're the one who's been acting like the BIGGEST BITCH STRAIGHT OUT. And you're probably thinking right about now, "WTF IS WRONG WITH HER?! IV'VE NEVER DONE ANYTHING TO YOU"
Yeah, you probably 'haven't'..MAYBE BECAUSE YOU'RE SO SELF ABSORBED.

You're calling this bitching? I call this the truth. AND THE TRUTH HURTS.
I'd be glad to accompany you around the school to show you which people agree with me. Seriously, you'd be surprised.

**
Someone give me Evia Potato Salad please? And the Caesar Salad. And the Cold Pasta Salad. And all the other salads they sell. :)
AND FUDGE MAN. I LOVE JAMES BLUNTS ACCENT. It sounds quite posh and enunciates words in a way not many people do. IT'S SO RARE TO FIND SOMEONE WITH IT.

I am so dead tomorrow...

Ha. I'm so screwed for both assessments tomrrow..no joke...
I HATE EDUCATION. Kind of. A little. Slight. Bit,

I wonder what the USA is like..Is it really like how the media portrays them? Or is it just stereotypical students/ teenagers and men/ women portrayed on the silver screen?
I wonder what France is like..I don't know how to explain it, but they have this feeling of cleanliness and serenity surounding them when I think of them.
I wonder what Europe is like...Is it cold all the time? Coz I would LOVE to live there for the rest of my life. I hate the Summer so much that words cannot describe..Or else maybe it's just the Australian summer...Because those travelling shows on TV say that it's cold all year round, and then they show us what summer 'is like' while they're there, and the clouds are like grey. And they talk to a local, and they ask rhetorically "So this is summer?" And then they focus themselves back on the camera and say "It's like winter all year round!"

I want to go over to the US someday, but to be honest, I'm scared of the terrorism or whatever it is. It's not terrorism until someone labels it as it is. Stupid media.
But then again, we wouldn't be able to live without media..could we? Just food for thought.

Look at me blab away wasting valuable time instead of studying...
AHHHHHHHH. The last year of high school is only 5 weeks away....IS THAT CRAZY OR WHAT?!

****
"...still want to be 'friends'"? Jeez, thanks for the vote of confidence.

TOODLES. I need to watch Bones. And Criminal Minds. GAHHHH. GLEEEE. I missed out on this weeks episode! I hate watching shows online...apart from Asian Dramas ahaha :D

Biology.

I guess it was ok. I didn't expect myself to go through and finish the test so fastly...
But I was pretty happy with my test today :)
I'm so happy that I won't even care about the mark that I recieve because I know that I've actually, for once, given it my all.
OK, I'll care if it's like...below my average mark for the past year LOL!

GAH, but I need to study for Maths which is in our Assessment Period tomorrow morning, and then Japanese is in second period...So that means two tests in a day, one after another. NUUUUUUUU.

This is gay. OK, I am so not touching hotmail/facebook tonight...

Lalalalalalalalalala.

HARRO there :D
OMG. Denmark and India as well :) That's sho kewl!

Well, I had a spring clean in the garage with dad :) DAYUM. It's sparkling clean! :D

Toodles, Bio assessment tomorrow, and Maths and Jap on Wed.

I'm so stupid.

I make assumptions. Stupid they are. And then find out they're false.
I hate my tonuge. Metaphorically people...metaphorically..

Well, good to see you are nice :)
But then, the assumptions only apply to one of the people you talk to. So I guess I was partially right...ish?

OK. I really need to get into the habit of praying to God about studying and everyday plans..not because "the Bible says we should/ God commanded us to do so.." But because this is what we are to do..OK REPHRASE DAMN I REALLY HATE MY TONGUE.
Because this is the way we should live our lives, to praise God, to do everything in Him, no matter how big or small, or how significant or insignificant the task is.

What made my day...HMMMM. A KOREAN COUPLE SITTING NEXT TO ME IN SERVICE.
GOSH. That was cool. I read a Korean Bible. NOW IS THAT AWESOME OR WAHT?! :D
Coolness :D But he had like this bloodied toe. I got shivers down my spine when I looked over...

Toodles. TIME TO REVISE AND COMPLETE UNFINISHED HW. FUDGEEEEE :S

Oh. and DADDY'S BACK :D Wow, he was like, two hours earlier than expected..The plane was apparently on time...FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER. Shame he didn't get the iPod for me...The Duty Free thing was closed...But I got a soft toy. TIS CUTEEEEEE. And that bag. Um. like. O.O
*vomit* Gu jie, I think you should start looking around at the kids aorund my age at what they use. OK. NOT EVEN. Watch the media. Gu jie, I don't mean any offense, but seriously, that is FOOGLY.
I would probably use it for travelling/ camps, and that would be about it...

Weakling..

LOOL. I don't even know why I wrote that on the title...
HSC is the epitome of life and death. NO JOKE.
Do I care to elaborate my thoughts on that? No, I don't.

OMG. I bought today's Sunday Telegraph, and on page 52-53, there was a spread on princesses from European countries, with Kate Middleton, obviously in the middle, to create the illusion that she 'vies' for attention.  I love reading everything about hierarchical family lines and relations. IT IS SO DAMN FASCINATING. I swear that that's one of the things that could take my mind off of ANY situation I'm in. I'd drown in that information. How I long for a library that would contain information on all the hierachies and Imperial families, that there has ever been. Highly fascinating I'd say.

Australia. You are such a young country. You have no colourful history. You bore me.
I was wondering...If I walked around England with that English accent of mine, would people think I was born there? :) AHAHAHA. I love the English accent.

I had a wonderful lunch today :) Twas SO filling. OMG. Lumiere you looked SO DIVINE. That pool of yours was the definition of SHEEEEEEK (chic; French). I dream to enter your atrium one day (that sounds wrong, in a way). And look down upon Sydney..while laughing at them...
OK. No I won't, at the bit where I said "while laughing at them" LOL :D
But I wonder who lives there. Lumiere is incredulously expensive. :O
I hope one day, that I could buy a beautiful place like that live in :)

For now, it's back to studying for my time consuming HSC assessment tasks!
Toodles chingu's :)
DAD IS BACK TODAYYYY. I want my iPod NAOOOOOOOO. And that soft toy gu jie got me. And those miscellaneous items :) hehehe!
Oh, and I've yet to finish compiling my list of shopping in Duty Free etc, I started on it yesterday BWAHAHAAHAHAAH :)
Puffy, we shall be plane buddies! Hope my flight gets delayed so that I won't be much of a loner on that special, special day of festivities :(
I know you'll be reading this some time soon Puffy :) Inbox me after you read this.

I find joy in finding out when people lie. And especially when it's right in my face, especially when they're your closest friends. HA. But I guess who wouldn't enjoy seeing watching someone acting like they're 'for real', when you know that they're lying...

...It's not really a big deal, but I would prefer it if you guys were just upfront and didn't try to match yourselves to the 'same level', and try to make yourselves look like you can match up to other people's levels. It's not what people look for in friends.

The thing about the 'good news', lol, just forget about it. I'll mentio it like soon enough. I've changed my mind if any of you were wondering. Biology. You piss me offffff.

OK. Tomorrow, I REALLLY need to get my maths  and Jap down pat. And do all the stacks of homework and assessments done SHEESH. The load's too bigg :(

Sorry.

Sorry, but I'm going to have to blunt to you. Running away from everything won't make it better. This'll all catch up to you again. If not now, it will definitely hit you quite hard in the back of your head. Just letting you know...

As I have told you previously, your actions, emotions etc., are quite easy for me to read.
Remember how I was checking up on you to see if you relapsed back into your previous condition? See, your lies couldn't fool me. I knew you were going to be 'that way' sonner or later.

Since this time you won't be seeing us in a span of like, about a month (idk, but it'll definitely feel like that), we're just ALL going to wait for you. And since we're 'waiting' for you, your reactions towards our waiting will be chagrin in a way.

***
If you knew about your actions, then you should stop it? It makes sense.

O.O

11 views from France. Now THAT is pretty cool.
I cannot help it, this is SO gay. Just when I thought life was about to get better, the school tells me that I have MORDO AS MY FRICKEN MENTOR. DUDE. I DON'T WANT HIM TO BE WRITING MY REFERENCE. HE LOOKS DOWN ON EVERYONE. JEEEEZ.

Someone rescue me.
He's going to tell us to buy coke for him the whole time, and I only know Hassan and Nasia in there..
I don't know the other Lebs...Nasia and I are the ONLY girls in there with like 6 guys. Now that is what you called crappy organisation.

FINALLY. some peace.

OK. At least things at school have settled down these days. Gosh getting caught up in the middle of your group and not knowing 'who to stand up for' is so tiring.

School pisses me off. Everyone in the group is just so damn GAHHHH.
They backstab each other when the others not there..
And when they are in front of each other, they act like they're 'total besties' like, um. huh?
I guess it was good to make the decision to be an onlooker.
But I just really needed to voice my opinions, seeing as some of us in the group was looking in from the outside.
Its so different with a 'larger' group of friends. I was never used to that environment.
I'm the type that likes to have 1 or 2 close friends, and that's about it for me. I don't really hang much with everyone else...More of a 'just act happy and walk away afterwards' when I'm with large groups of people.

I swear, that girl has done NOTHING wrong to you guys, and I know that. Why you may ask. Maybe because unlike YOU ALL, she doesn't go bitching around. I know some of you watch every letter that I type onto here, so I'm just letting you know I'm trying to voice opinions, while at school you act like you're all innocent, and you 'never know what I'm talking about'. I have done nothing wrong to you, although it may seem like it. Yes, I admit, I do really dislike you. But as much as I'd like to keep on disliking you, that's not the best way to go around it. So I hope you will be able to see this sincerity someday. You guys may be bitching about me, but I certainly don't do that with/ about you guys.

Just one more thing, I hate how you people are starting to give a lot of the others a cold shoulder.
GAH. I shall keep myself from writing up anymore depressing blogs in the next few weeks :)

WELL. I had my FIRST HSC assessment today! OMG! It was SO damn nerve wracking! :O
Everything went wrong. Like GAH. Usually, when I have study notes, I don't print them off until the night before the assessment task because I find that when I read the notes on the monitor, I can study a fraction better. So this morning, I clicked on the WRONG Microsoft Word Document! And printed it out, Like it was my notes, but I had one that I finished, and one that I didn't end up finsihing, coz I forgot to delete that one. GAH. And I printed the one that I didn't finish, and what was worse was that I didn't print the WHOLE THING out! GRRRR.

But, luckily I took my Ancient History book with me to school, and I studied everything. The test was GAY CRAP. It tested on like, 3 out of 12 topics we did. Like, THE FUDGE BRO. Anyways, I remembered everything clearly, until I flipped the fricken test paper OVER. My mind was still brewing over all the notes I had made, and you could even swear that it was overflowing if it was tangible! And the MINUTE I flipped it over...I looked like a deer in the headlights, but unlike deers, I was unable to think of anything. All I thought of was WHITE. REPHRASE. All I could think about was the colour white, so my mind literally went blank.
But of course, the obvious essay questions were answered. BUT OHMYCRAP. THE FIRST FRICKEN QUESTION. I was SO STUCK ON THAT. Because that was the bit where I didn't study much on, and was the bit where I didn't sum up on my syllabus points on the WRONG SET OF NOTES WHICH I HAD WITH ME. So literally, on the LAST minute, I just guessed it, hoping it was correct.
And guessing that answer could be one of my Top 5 reasons to die a happy person right at his moment.
I GUESSED IT RIGHT. I EVEN ELABORATED ON THE WHOLE THING. I AM SO HAPPY.
In the end, it's God who gives me this wisdom, so I am really greatful to Him. And only through Him, can good doings be doneee :)

Many good things and bad things have happened, but all we can do is give thanks. I'm starting to see why people would 'give thanks' for things going bad.
I try to view life, and everything that surrounds it, in all possible ways, so that misunderstandings won't be made, and I think it has helped shape me who I am. Everyday, I have bad thoughts in my head (of course, everyone does) and I try to see it from a different perspective, and then it somehow turns into a good thing :)

All I can think of now are positive things, I am so dropping life, unless the situations are mandatory for life.
:)
Toodles. Hope everyone's in good spirits!

You tossed it in the trash, you did....; Yr 10 Orientation. Day 2.

Bruno Mars, why oh WHY, are your songs so in the right all the time?
***
Seriously, you're the type that thinks that you've done nothing wrong, and expect people to come crawling back to you. Just letting you know, life doesn't revolve around you. Not everything's going to be influenced by you. So go sulk in that little corner of yours yeah?

If you ask afterwards, I know that you're a keeper :)
If not, then I'll keep in mind to chuck you aside like a piece of no good trash.
***
OMG. I just wrote this HEAPS good song in less than 5 minutes from those two lines above!! :D, while listening to Grenade; credited to Bruno Mars! :D

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Well, talking about how you cope with the yr 11 and 12 workload 4 times, is quite repetitive and patience testing. But in the end it was worth it, coz I got my PREFECTURE CREDENTIALSSS!! :D

Apart from all that crap I wrote above...
I have had THE  happiest mood ever since Eun-Chong's first day :)
Today, I found a site BY ACCIDENT, that contained ALL the summarised syllabus points for EVERY subject in the HSC Course. What joy it was. I have not stopped smiling since like..4:30.
God's doings are really miraculous :)
Today, I realised that I needed to put a lot more trust in Him :)!

I am not in a foul mood anymore! Due to the song I just composed, and todays BLISS of finding out all the syllabus points for the rest of the HSC Course we take :)

<3 God, <3 friends.

And Ella's gone to ShangHai already :( Stay safe!
OMG. I recently started 'Down With Love'..LIKE OMG. GRACE LI. THIS IS SO NOT THE TIME BRO.
GAHH. And I have my first HSC assessment task tomorrow morning - Ancient History!
Hope I go well in it :)
Hope the syllabus findings will help me throughout the rest of this last year I have in high school!

Oh, and today in the Panel in the Gallery, Riccardo was like "I now know why they call it 'high school'" LOL.

Heavenly Father, I hope you will help me get through tonight's studying for tommorow's assessment task.
And today, on the way to school was pretty good. A Christian Ministry man was talking to a Puerto Rico student. Twas a pretty good story to hear :)

Germany.

As well. :)

Year 10 Orientation Day. DAY 1

Well, today was gay. Missed out on Japanese and Biology.
Hate catching up on work.
Love taunting children.
ROFLs.
We were in the Gallery, and we were getting ready for our 'panel' of speakers, and the guys started to play music on their phones, and then use the microphone to 'make some noise' BAHAHAHA. And then they were dancing to trance. or whatever crap it was. And then they started speaking like mychonny.
OMG. I HATE THOSE CHILDREN. But anywhos, we're allowed to boss them around now, so I guess all's good :)
AND OMG. There's like. SIX people from SGCS coming to Oatley. like. WA-OWWWWW. I never thought that those few people would change, especially that one girl. She looks like she had everything going right for her..Wonder why she's chagning :/

BAHAHAHA. So they started walking into the Gallery, and they wouldn't shut up, and all of us were like "Be quiet CHILDREN!" BAHAHAHAHAHA. The bliss of being a senior in a senior school. Note the pun.

And damn those girls from Penshurst. They walk around the school like they think they own it already. PSCHT. And a fight nearly started today. Again. GAH.

Seriously I want to rage about a number of reasons. But I won't. I will choose to forget it, unless some people want to bring it back up. It was a time for you people to find some others to lean on, but like seriously. She's always there for you, no matter what, and I can guarantee you that. But for now, she's had enough. If this is how you treat her, and not even encourage or mutter a word to her, I don't know what you people want from them. She's very willing to do anything, and the way you act really won't be helping much at all. So please stop acting like little 12 year olds when you're like 16/17, even though you guys do spur each other on.
OK. POOOOOOOOOOOOOOFFFF. This will stay here, and it'll be erased from my memmory. Well, I could try heaps hard to erase, but I can't guarantee.

Tomorrow is Day 2 of Orientation. BAHAHAHAHAH. Have to talk about fricken hospitals and my crappy school attendance. Thanks a lot. LOL. But then, it's the only thing I can do to get Prefecture...
I want PREFECTUREEEEE. And those little Hurstville boys children. BLAH. You guys are gonna have so much trouble studying unless you're like Bassem or Shane. LOOOL. Good luck to you allllllll :)

SERIOUSLY.

I am SO over being sick all the time.
First coughing.
Then fever.
Now a COLD.

FUDGE THIS WORLD.

omg. China in a month and two-ish weeks.

BAHAHAHAH.

I love reading my stats for this blog. I'm so curoius as to who's reading it :)
I have had 10 views since the start of this day.
Today is BOILING HAWTTTTT.
I hate Australian weather.
I wish I could live in Forks. NO SUN AT ALL.
I hate Summer. Love Winter :)
But seriously, I really do hate the sun.

Do you even care anymore?

IT feels like you don't, and that you want nothing to be amended.
But hey, I could be raging back at you so badly you probably won't even know what just hit you. You haven't seen me rage, no ones seen me rage as bad as I can, not even my closest friends, only my parents.

Yeah, wallow in your self-pity. You say I'm contradicting myself, while at the EXACT same time when you say it, you're only contradicting yourself as well.
We're all wrong, and I've had my fair share of arguing this last month ok?
So before you say that I'm 'in the wrong', let me remind you, as much as i am 'in the wrong', you are in the wrong too. Everyone is in the wrong.
Me being 'in more of the wrong than you could ever be' right now, doesn't change the fact that you are in the wrong as well. SO JUST SHUT THE HELL UP.
I HATE HAVING YOU PEOPLE TALKING TO ME.

***
Onto a happier note...
WAIT. But before I get onto it, let me rage say a bit more.
As much as I want everything to be fine again, knowing how you guys are acting really doesn't help if you want to 'get over this'..If this is what you could even call it.
You guys fuel each other. AND I HATE IT. I knew this was going to come sooner or later literally YEARS ago, so just grow up. And come back when you're ready. When you have a real dose of reality.

***
Now it's really onto a happier note. :D
OK, well I wouldn't say say 'happier', but I would say BETTER note :)
Well, I got my braces tightened today. They felt weird while he was tightening them, and when he took the wires out, my teeth felt SO FREE. And so I was like out aloud, "I feel so free! (referring to teeth)"
And the ortho goes to me, "WOW! *flashes smile* We've never had anyone say that before."
Like, does anyone experience 'free-ness' after the ortho takes out the wire while he's changing them?

But they don't hurt, so all is fine. But I wonder why they're not hurting :/

I really need to start making notes for assesssments. As much as I'd like to focus on life right now, the assessments shape our lives. So I guess, drop life, and let the days that you live be surrounded by assessments and studying until the end of next year?

I wonder.

How life is, on your side right now.
These days, I don't really care much about anything anymore...
I laugh things off, take everthing light heartedly, to not take everything so seriously, because none of it is worth my time at the moment.
I'm gone.

IQ102

SO, I just finished watching 'The National IQ Test 2010' on Channel 9.
My IQ is102! :D It feels gratifying knowing that your IQ is higher than the normal average :)
The average is 100.

Next Monday and Tuesday is Year 10 Orientation, which means that I get to miss out on class and take little children around our schoooool! :D And to get my Passport for Prefecture signed! YEEE BRO.
A step closer to getting Prefecture credentials!

SHIET. Forgot about typing up tutoring homework O.O

Blah. Blah. Blah.

HIGHLIGHT.

To kickstart this morning with a BANG, this morning Ruth and I went straight to Jannali :)
ROFLS. LMAO.
OK, for those of you who don't know the train stops down here, they ARE
All Stops: Hurstville, Penshurst, Mortdale, Oatley, Como, Jannali etc.
Limisted Stops: Hurstville, Penshurst, Mortdale, Jannali etc.

NOTE: To get to Como and Jannali, you have to go over this river. And it's like, a LONG ASS AWAY FROM OATLEY.

LOLS. OK. I could NOT stop laughing about this the whole day today :)
Well, Ruth and I got on the trani ASSUMING it went to Oatley, but thanks to our 'friends', they didn't even make an ATTEMPT to stop us from getting on. Or maybe they just thought we wanted to go to Mortdale like some people do, and exercise their way to school. But we're not that gruelling.
ANYWAYS. Ruth was talking to me non-stop, and when our train hit Mortdale, I just decided to stare out the window and take in my surroundings (which were Caringbah little children and no Oatley people left on the train at Mortdale), because usually, Moggie and stuffs stand while Ruth and I sit. So I started looking out the window, and noticed all Oatley people getting off while Ruth was talking. The doors were starting to shut, and I turned around to her, and grabbed her arm, and said "WE'RE GOING TO JANNALI!!!!!!!!!" Yeah. We immediately realised that getting all stressed about being late to school/ being scared not knowing 'how to get back' wouldn't help us in the situation, so what do we start doing first? Laugh. Laughter is the best medicine. And to this very moment, while I'm typing, I STILL am laughing, but I'm trying SO hard to suppress it, and by doing that, my cheeks hurt from smiling. ANYWAYS.

So we got to Jannali, and we got off. AND THANK SERIOUSLY. THANK THE LORD that that Antonio guy from school was on the same train as us..He was like, 3-ish carriages in front of us. And ruth and I were looking around on the station to see how to get to the other side, and I saw Antonio, so I was like to Ruth, "At least we're not alone :)" OK, well, we don't know Antonio on a friend basis, we just see him around at school. So where Ruth and I got off was directly in front of the gate to walk out of the station, and there was no other way to get to the other platform (Jannali only has two platforms). And Antonio was looking around for a way to get to the other platform and there was no way to get there, and I realised that we could only walk out onto the street, and walk in a circle to the other side. BWAHAHAHA. And he started following us. But who wouldn't? We had to stick together anyways coz we go to the same schooooooooooool.

LUCKILY. When we got to the other top of the street of that sides platform, the train started to come. Because there usually aren't many trains that go to Jannali/ Oatley. So if this train didn't stop at Oatley, it DEFs would've stopped at Mortdale. Concluding that the three of us would have to gruel it all the way to school from there... =.="
BUT. The boy ran. And run so fast he did, that he got onto the train before the both of us. Thanks. But at least he was nice enough to keep the train doors from closing to let us get on the train :) AND LOL. What was funny was that, the three of us INSTINCTIVELY poked our heads out at the same time to see if the train was going to stop at Oatley.

So, in the end, the train made it to Oatley. We got off the train, and the first thing that came to my mind was that God had actually planned this out nicely! :D Although we could've been late, we don't know if we were made to go there to 'guide' Antonio to get to the other platform, or if it was that Antonio was made to go there so that both of us girls didn't feel so hopeless. And I ended up saying to Ruth, "God really DOES have His plans set out for each one of us."

We got to school, and we JUST made it, one minute before the bell went off :)

BWAHAHAHAHAH. This was the highlight of my day, and probably will be the highlight for the rest of this remaining year.

CHRISTMAS IN SIX WEEKS PEOPLE.

Gahh. Syllabus points. Here I come.

I don't want you to take this to heart ok? I know that you may though.
But this isn't doing any of us any good yeah?

I can kind of see where each of us are coming from when we talk.
I know you know that this has affected each one of us hard, and that we are ALL going through this as if we were walking through quicksand.
Some are suffering harder than others, but you two are definitely suffering the hardest.
No need to point out the reasons to what they are. They are quite obvious for us to see. (or at least most of us)

I sound like some fudged up psychologist or something, but I just really want to comfort the both of you, and try to sort things out calmly between the four of us. I know that if we do actually try, the first few times, it won't go as smoothly, but if we keep re-inforcing and reminding each other that in order to get through all of this, and not leave it as some unfinished memory in the future, we need to get through this all. TOGETHER.
We are all hurting. Some more than others.

Oh yeah, just clarifying things up. I know that if I chucked a 'Karen', it would NOT have gone down well, even when you asked me to. Remember YG I think `08? Yeah it was `08.. I could tell that even when you were all aggravated, and you had two entirely different personalities talk to you about it, you preferred the 'Clara' personality much more. Everything worked out better in the end, although I have a feeling them being older also contributed to it, but still. It's the way they talked you through it that made you not so aggravated.

Hope you guys are well :)

Aveeno. I hate you. You sticky little bitch, who doesn't absorb well into skin. Go away.

Life. FREEEEEDOMM

SO. Dad's been out of the country for about a week now..I actually don't know for how long it's been, but it sure feels like a week.
I was excited that he was leaving, so that I could have more freedom. BUT NO.
All this school work started to pile up....
SO. There's still like...Two more weeks until he comes back.
At least there's cash to burn. NUUU.
Braces are being tightened this coming Friday. I wonder if it'll hurt as much as people say it will? O.O

I need sleep. DAMN my sleeping patterns are so fudged I can't sleep at night nowadays.. Everything's boiling up inside me......and I can't get to sleep..And then I end up sleeping through classes. This is SOOOO not the time to be doing that..
And then because of 'not sleeping early' (because I can't fall asleep) I get fricken SICK. and fricken fevers and coughing.
Fudge life. OK. Be greatful for it Grace, be greatful. People have it WAYYY worse than you do. What you need is a slap in the head from someone who's suffering much more. That way, everything'll be better :)

Toodles. Time to sleep my dearest chingu's :)
DURIAN. YOMMY.

BRRRROOOOOOM BRROOOOOM. Sorry. I seriously don't know why I did that O.O
I guess I just heard a car go by hahaha :)

Guess what I do when I first log into my blogspot?
I check my stats. That way I like to see who from which countires are reading my blog ahaha.
So far I've had quite a few views from Canada and USA.

JEEZ. There's SO much homework to do. SHAT.
All those exercises on Maths. Summarisation of syllabus points for Bio and Ancient. And then read the speeches, and answer approximately 20 questions for three speeches. THEN. Tutoring homework. gah.

Well, I have some good news/ bad news. It depends on which way you look at it I guess. But for me, I guess it's good to know the outcomes. You'll hear more about it in the upcoming posts...

Blah. I hate it. I hate school. I cannot skip school unless I'm like crazy sick and I cannot have ANY sort of early leave unless it's for a hospital appointment. So not even for physio. DAYUUUM. Life is so time consumed these days. OK...So that didn't really make sense. Ahahahas. Remember previously, in my blog, how I told you guys that the Board of Studies allows a leeway of 80% attendance at school, even though they say minimum is 85%? My attendance is fricken 81.25%. I'm so pissed at me. But yeah, I guess who wouldn't be? But seriously, NO JOKE, I really thank God that they're giving us a leeway. That way, I won't have to repeat. Fudge the system I say.

We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly. :)
OK. That came out harsh (from my perspective, for the time being). But everyone has their little minor flaws yeah? Some have bigger than others. And some even have titanic flaws.

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
BLAHHHHHH. FUDGE YOU ALLL.

I don't know who to believe now.
Guess we'll have to start a new brick wall from the first brick to the first layer of cement.
But first, where do we get that first brick from? Now there's food for thought.

You are; I understand; You are.

A gift to me. Flawless. Feisty. Yet compassionate. My everything. Unique. Intelligent.  Too stuborn to believe the true facts about yourself. Outgoing. Loud. Messy. Everything in between.

That this is a hard time. Everything's crumbling. That it feels like there's nothing left in life. The fact that you want to take your mind off of everything.

Everything I need.

***
Personally, I think that no matter who you talk to, it's best to get these things off of your chest. I know that you don't want to admit it to yourself, but just thinking about already makes it an admittance. The sooner you get these things off your chest (to a close friend), the less insecure you'll feel :).

I've been wanting to call you for so long, but to be honest, I'm scared when you rage/ are pissed, no matter who it's aimed at. In the end, I'm just some wuss who's scared of you. One day, just ONE DAY, I'll muster up the courage to call you again.

***
To the girl at school, you were new. My friends welcomed you. It was great seeing you again since primary school days ;). But now, my so called friends have abandoned you these past two weeks. I'm sorry that I got caught up in my own little world and didn't realise it. That feeling of loneliness, and not being able to know who to turn to, who to trust. I can't even find you at school anymore. You hide in little crevices and cracks, which makes it so much harder to find you. I'll spot you in the library soon! I have a small-ish idea of what's going on....She stole your major yeah? That must suck, I can only imagine what it feels like to have that happen to you. You're everything probably depended on that :( Inbox me when you see this. If you don't want to talk, I'm fine with it, I just don't want to seem nosy. Don't worry! I'll sing you the meatball song :) Wait, you'll have to tell me the lyrics first though...I've forgotten what the words were.

***
To us four in English: DAMN. We are so gonna ace those trials! ;)

lalalalal.

i seeee youuuuuuu hehehehe.
if i told you guys what that really meant, it would show that my stalking level has gone up by like..10 notches. so like. yeah. ill stop right here. AHAHAHA.

Hi there.

SO. I thought that you would've learnt/ understood NOT TO SAY ANYTHING ELSE AFTER WHAT'S BEEN GOING ON THESE PAST WEEKS.
I don't want to rage at you, and I wll tell you this in the nicest way. Just please, if you have nothing nice to say, please keep it to yourself. This is the reason why everything is like this. OK. That didn't come out correctly. It's not that you should keep it to yourself, but just be nice about it in a way ok? ... If it's possible.
I really don't like this, and if it means distancing myself to keep close to you guys (I don't know if who evers reading this would understand..), I will do that.

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Onto a happier note.

ROFLS. LOOL. Today, I started tutoring again(all hail tutoring), but this time, it was at The Brain. Ahahahah, I actually quite like the setting out of the classes here. They put you into classes with people from your school so that whatever we get tutored for, we'll be on the same page, and we'll be learning ahead of our topics, because the tutor knows topics we do, and in which order.

Well, in a way, it's kinda crappy as well because for the first hour, we get this lady teaching us called Leonie, and lol, we get to use mild swear words..even she uses them O.O
We go through a past paper with her, and then the next hour, we get Chris to tutor us. He's the principal of The Brain, and he seems quite carefree, yet strict.. I don't know how that works. AHAH IT'S A PARADOX. lol... Yeah, and then he goes through notes with us. And Leonie's still here with us..Two tutors at the same time? ..O.O

OMG ROFL. Jenny and I were eating sushi during tutoring right? And ahahaha. Leonie didn't even KNOW what SUSHI WAS. Do you know what she called it?! FALAFEL BAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH. Where the HELL did she get that from? LOL. And then all the Lebs started to laugh. ahahah :)
And then, it was change over time with the teachers, and she asked if Chris wanted anything to eat, and do you KNWO WHAT SHE SAYS? She says,
"Well, those two girls are eating Japanese Falafels...."

And, hypothetically Basem wanted to give Nobby a kiss; twas an analogy the teacher gave. LOL
And that Jack wanted to 'dance' with Adam. ROFLS.

And our reports were handed out at school. What a failure I am HAHA :) Oh wells, I can do better next time, I've done better than the previous report, and gotten better than what I was expecting. So therefore, I should be thankful (:
Yeah. That was pretty much my day. How was yours? I'd like to hear about it, whether it'd been good or bad, rain or hail. I'm in a happy mood to comfort anyone right at this moment. :)
Comforting I am bad at, but I guess the more experience I get, the better I'll be next time yeah? :)

/edit at 2255. i meant rain or SHINE. ahahahas.

BOS CRAP and crap from today. crapcrapcrap. is all that ever happens in this world.

Dear BOS,

Please, go fudge yourselves. I understand that you want people to have at least 85% attendance, and give people a leeway of minimum 80% at the lowest. But seriously, could you reconsider your outlines again? Yeah, I know you 'understand' (what bullshit that is) that people may have reasonable reasons as to why their attendance is too poor or whatever. Maybe people catch up straight after on what they miss out. Have you EVER thought of that. Just because we're 'younger' than you and more 'carefree' than you parliamentary people, take into consideration that some of us ACTUALLY take our education seriously and would do what EVER they fudge they can to get their HSC. You're screwing with peoples lives here. DID YOU KNOW THAT?! Bet you didn't.

I understand that what you say is 'for the best' (bullshat YET AGAIN). But you people can never take our words seriously would you? Guess that this is what makes Australia such a 'better country' than most others.
BULLSHAT. PISS OFF.

******
Onto a different topic now.

OK. I just saw a video on Facebook uploaded by my friends from school. OK. He's not really a friend. More of a "HI THERE. I've seen you around at school *adds on fb*"
It was a video which showed a young man, who most likely has a mental abnormality, who usually got on/ off trains at Hurstville. I am proud to say now, to the whole public, of how utterly ashamed I am of my school. I know that this may sound all principle-ish.. I'm sorry that you seem to think that I have a caring side for others. OK, the 'I am proud to say bit' didn't come out as perfectly as I wanted to...
But the video showed people in my year, who I THOUGHT were caring. Needless to say now, after seeing the video, I am utterly disgraced that they would disrespect the public and cause such racket and grievance towards a mentally affected young man, and the fact that they could CLEARLY tell he was mentally affected just makes the situation even worse.
I am even MORE disgraced at the fact that people who have watched the video have even 'liked' the video, and the fact that I treat them as my friends...HA. That just made me look at them in a whole new different perspective.

This is towards two entirely different people.

First of all, I never would've thought that the both of you would ever care about this type of stuff.
And I'm thanking the both of you on two totally different things that you care about.

To the first person, even though I do dislike you in this minute way, thankyou for caring I guess. We don't talk much, we don't have much in common, we don't know each other that well. But you care enough to make sure that everyone around you is ok. And I'm greatful for that.
Thank you.

To the second person. You find out about SO many things, I'm sure you'll have no trouble in finding this any time soon. Or maybe you've already found out...? O.O
I would never say this up front to you, because I don't know you well, but I know you well enough to know how you would react towards me if I told you I was greatful that you cared.
From what you've told me so far, I know that you're worried. Thanks for caring, but seriously, don't worry about it. You keep asking if there's anything you 'should be worried about'. Seriously, NO. Think about it. If I told you that there was something to worry over, you would. And knowing how crazily your brain can go, if I told you that there's simply nothing to worry about, you'd still be racking your brains about it. So either way, you'll be worrying.
Just let it go. Whatever comes, will come. Take things one at a time, and like I told you today
"Duh, no one would want their friends to worry"
Pretty sure you wouldn't like it if your friends kept hounding you on about it if you knew what was happening. I'm not blaming you, I'm just saying to let you know what it feels like. UNLESS YOU GOT ALL OF THIS CRAP OUT OF THEM. OMG. if i find out that you got all of this out of them. you are dead meat. ill get over it heaps fast. but seriously, if that's the case. THEN FUDGE YOU.
Thank you.

Clean your act up.

Dear cousin.

Although I've never seen you rage. I know about it. AND OH. IT'S BAD.
It's not for me to tell you how you should act. But seriously, you're how old? LIKE .FRICKEN 20 in less THAN A FRICKEN YEAR.

She has no confidence to speak up for herself, and she is my family. And so are you. But seriously. Next time reconsider your fricken actions. She's your FRICKEN SISTER. And you still decide to treat her that way. Do you know how much she loves you? Obviously you DON'T. I know that I will regret this once I say this to you. You are well-off. There are people who are MORE unfortunate than you and I will ever be. And that's a FRICKEN PROMISE.

Before you say "Oh, but we have enough cash" etc etc. FRICKEN HELL. PRESERVE YOUR MONEY BITCH. AT LEAST TRY HELP YOUR PARENTS SAVE UP FOR THEIR FRICKEN RETIREMENT. FAH. Do you need any more common sense instilled into your body and mind? Coz if you're parents aren't doing a well enough job of that, I'll be helping them. HAPPILY.
Yeah, wallow in self pity when we tell you off for it. But seriously, sharing an apartment with your sister. Is it REALLY that much of an annoyance to you?  She's going to be your family WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. So I GUESS that YOU'RE JUST GOING TO HAVE TO LIVE WITH IT. Do you know how much I've wished for an actual blood related sister? If you don't want her. I'll take her. GLADLY.

Gosh I hope my standing up for your sister hasn't made you want to start raging at her and me. Coz you know that we see each other each week, whether you like it or not. So I guess it's actually good to have such a tight-knit family in a way. Run away. Oh where would you go? :)
NO WHERE.
Once your parents get their hands on you. They'll probably be metaphorically strangling you.

Hope you clean up your act soon.

Love,
Your cousin.

You know what?

Sometimes, it would be all that nicer, if you apologised for making assumptions like I have.
I'm not trying to sound up myself or whatever.
I know you're not in the mood to apologise or whatever.
But I'm just saying, it would be nice.
But, don't do it because I asked it of you.

<3

Wow.

Haha, wow, people from around the world are actually reading my blog? This is freaky...OK, maybe it might be that random blog button thingy that you can click...But yeah. STILL.
And um, WHAT?! Some AutoInsurace car company thingy have my link, and so does some phoneservice company.
Wow, never knew that insurance companies and crap would find their way onto blogspot to keep track of some people. This means that anyone who has blogspot can have their blog being watched right?
Or maybe, it's just the privacy thingy which we can set ourselves..?

Ok, I sort of have an idea who reads my blog within my circle of friends without them telling me ROFLs. I know you guys read this because of the internet browser you use. AHAHAHAH. Yeah, blogspot tells us who's been reading it on what type of browser (chrome, safari, opera, etc.). They even tell me what operating system you use.. It's either Windows or Mac so far. YOU GUYS CANT HIDE FROM ME ANYMORE SUCKED IN. LOL.

Yeah, but that's kinda freaky in a way I guess. LOL.

Dum dee dum dee dum....

Dear Radio,

I would like to thank you  for the comfort today. Your lyrics and songs have made it all the easier to make today to live through. Music, I turn to you when everything turns upside down these days. You are my life-saver. Wait. You're second to God.

A chingu,
Grace
****

When you get to read this,  please know that my feelings are explained throughout to you with the lyrics.
I know they sound like love songs. Just ignore the mushy feelings yeah?

Choose You (lyrics video) - Stan Walker
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EWIfxuy8psU&feature=related
I hope the lyrics speak out to you,
"Love is just so beautiful
But sometimes it takes work
And the ones you love
At times can leave you so hurt"
Especially the chorus,
"I will choose to love you, yeah
Even though i wanna stay mad
Even though i wanna get angry
Though it may be easier to walk away
I will choose to stay and love you"

Whataya Want From Me - Adam Lambert (only the chorus lyrics speak out though :/ )
"Just don't give up I'm workin it out
Please don't give in, I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe"

To you readers who are reading this. Yes, it may sound cheesy to you. Just piss off.

Lalalalala. Yes I may seem like I'm all happy and crap about everything, but I really still do care. I just don't think it's that important to waste our time on bad memories. Resolving, is not classified as a bad issue, if you thought that I meant resovling was a 'bad memory'.
Please don't take it the wrong way. My wording these days are fudged.

Lots of <3 :)

Damnit.

OK. First of all. Blogspot. I'm pissed AT YOU.
WHY THE HELL DID YOU STOP THE EDIT BUTTTON?!
If you didn't, I certainly don't have the button anymore.

But anyways. Back to reality, now, that I have gotten some sort of closure from one of us in the group, I am able to kind of stop worrying so much.
But worry, I will. I will keep worrying until everything is resolved.
It's a habit that I cannot control.
I worry too much.
For once, could I just PLEASE stop sound so self-absorbed.?
I would really like there to be a day called "Stop Being So Fucking Self-Absorbed Day"
That day would go down quite well, to see everyone trying their best to focus their lives onto people surrounding them, and not themselves.
Well, needless to say, psychologists have to have that day everyday. I feel sorry for you, unless you enjoy the job. I'm sure some of you do.

OK. Things that I am greatful for.
I am greatful that I have such great friends in and out of school. I should stop being so judgemental about some of you guys, because seriously, some of you REALLY PISS THE CRAP OUT OF ME. And yet, when something happens to me, you always care. I should throw a party for you guys.
I am greatful for you today. You saw me, you knew I was unwell. Although you do tick me off at times, you really do care for some unknown reason. I love how you cared if I was OK. But I hate the fact that you believed my lie. But I brought that upon myself. But you don't know me that well, so I wouldn't blame you anyways. You haven't even known me for a full year yet..
Japanese. You are who I should be greatful for. Even my closest friends couldn't cheer me up at school today. Thankyou for the joy and laughter you brought me today. Even though the incident that occurred was fricken disgusting. It was fricken HILARIOUS even though I was sitting in the chair that it happened on. 
Japanese, just so you know, even though I'm greatful towards you, you aren't TANGIBLE. So I'm sorry we can never be together.

My dad is watching some French ad on satellite TV. I have to say, it sounds like the sexiest language alive.

Dear Excel SUCCESSONE HSC Biology Workbook,
I really hope that my 30$ was well spent on you today. I hope that we can co-operate well togetherly, so that I can bring you more profits, and that I can get a better ATAR.
LOL.

Better not forget/ make any mistakes in this blog. SINCE WE CAN'T EDIT ANYMORE.

30 seconds after posting.
OK....That's weird... O.O the edit button is back in town...