Why?

Why is it that I'm left with no one?
You are distancing yourself, and if you read this, you'd probably know who you are.
Is it something I've done to you? And now you're pissed...? Or is it really only because you're EXTREMEEEEELY busy getting ready?

Independence. So this is what it feels like.
I always thought I knew what it was like to be independent, but I guess now that the REAL reality has hit me, I know what it's really like to be independent. But then, in a way, it can make people REALLY headstrong. And I think I'm one of those people who can turn out to be really headstrong..So in the end, it won't really be my fault...In the end, I guess I'll have a good enough excuse to blame it on someone, or more like everyone?
FAROUT, I can't believe this is genetic...I look around at my family (inc. extended), and I list ALL the bad qualities against the good ones, which turn out to be 100:1....and I've been thinking to myself all of these years that have passed by, "I WILL NOT turn into one of these people. I can make the change. I am different. I won't let this be passed down."
Yeah, as cheesy as what I say to myself may be, at least I have a hope for a 'better future', behavioural wise.

No one's shoulder to lean on, no one to depend on for happiness. And I guess if that's the 'career' (only 1 person knows what I'm talking about) I want to take on, I'd really have to suck it up and be sane, knowing that the world's not perfect.

I wish I could escape this world. I wish I could swap lives, like SECRET GARDEN AHAHA :D